Christmas Eve...

...one little girl waiting patiently for Santa to come,

& finally visions of 'chicken sets' dance in her head...
(all while her best friend keeps his nightly vigil)
Shhh... I think I hear hoof steps on the roof!
*peeking*

Behold...

...A "CHICKEN SET",



A Doll House,
(a GWEEN ONE)


&

HANGERS!


hee hee

Somehow, I have a feeling I'm going to love tomorrow morning,
just as much as my sweet girl.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Anyone Want A...

...few DOZEN Christmas Biscotti's?
hehehe

From left to right: Chocolate Almond Biscotti, Cranberry Walnut Anise Biscotti & Hawaiian Fruit & Nut Biscotti
(both of those recipes are THIS ONE just add the fruits, nuts & flavoring of your choice!)
You can really get creative, as well as pretty messy!
Merry Christmas Eve Everyone!!!
*Hugs* from our house to yours!

-Amy, Ruby Cate & Bear too.

Damn that FULL MOON! *updated/photos*

I'll never understand why we have the dreams that we do.
It's early morning Christmas eve, I have to work, thus why I'm up, and I had a dream last night, so vivid, so REAL, that I woke up shaking.
No, it wasn't a scary dream, it was something of an impossibility perhaps, but one my heart always has on the back burner of possibility.

You all know I've been to Italy many times... yes?
Well, two of my biggest loves in life currently reside there still.
(and NO they're not Pizza & Gnocchis...)

One's name is Valerio, the other Pietro.

Valerio was my first true, OMG isn't it great to be alive,
kind of love.
The kind that, many years later, as an adult woman of 35,
I still smile & blush a bit when I think of him.

Over the years I have kept contact with Pietro,
but sadly I can't say the same for Valerio.
Reason being?
Pietro's wife, a complete DOLL and friendly as hell.
Valerio's wife?
*not so much*

I digress...

So, back when I was a wee girl of 13-14 years, Valerio & I were inseparable.
I have photos of he & I together that,
every now & again, I'll peek at to remember those times & bring back such wonderful memories.

Well, last night, I had a dream I was dancing at this bar with some friends I didn't know.
(first of all, I don't dance, SECOND of all, I haven't been to a bar in EONS, thus, a dream!)

The bartender gets a phone call & calls me over to say that
"that gentleman over the other side of the bar wants you to know that you're still beautiful
and asked if you were engaged?"

I'm all, huh??

I look down the other and of the bar to see this man,
standing beside a woman,
and smiling at me.

I did not recognize him but told the bartender that,
no, I wasn't engaged but to please thank him for the compliment,
trying to ignore that he had said 'still beautiful', which meant that somehow, he knew me.

I kept dancing & now had my arms around this random (but handsome) guy and asked if he'd play along so that mister 'stranger with the compliments' would leave me be.
He did, and we ended up kissing.
Heh, gotta love a dream...

Upon seeing this kiss, stranger marched down the bar to where we stood and pulled us apart & showed me his wallet, or more to the point, it's contents.
Girl trailed along side him still smiling, at this point I think to myself that she might be 'slow'...

I take his wallet against my better judgement & look inside...

and there they are;
every single picture of Valerio & I ever taken from that summer together.

And I look up, and his eyes are the same, only, he's not the 15 year old Valerio, he's a man.
I start to immediately shake and can't form one word from my mouth,
in either Italian or English.
He reaches over, grabs my hands & says
"You're still so beautiful Amy, we have both waited a long time for this..."
and he slips onto my finger, the ring we got years ago to symbolize that we were dating.
"This time," he says, "this is forever... marry me?"

I was crying like a baby and could barely stand...
this HAS to be a dream!

All at once, the woman finally spoke.
It was Elena, his sister;
"Amy, he's been searching for you for a long time, he never stopped loving you."

OMG OMG OMG OMG
My heart was racing,
I was crying,
VALERIO WAS HOLDING MY HANDS for Christ's sake,
and I thought that at any minute I could easily faint dead on the spot.



I looked up at him,


my old love,



my first love,


smiled,

and woke up.


WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?

I know it was a full moon last night but COME ON!

Now, I must disappear to work as I leave my sleeping Ruby snoring in my bed
only to have my parents take my place until she wakes up.

I either need to be far more cognizant of the moon phases,
or perhaps I should find me a new guy to date.

Either way, it'll have to wait as I'm off to work.

Peaceful...

... & quiet.
I had forgotten just how beautiful
my neighborhood can be this time of year.
I LOVE winter!

Me... SPEECHLESS?

Ok, well maybe not speechless,
BUT STUPEFIED, PERHAPS?
DUMBFOUNDED?
PERPLEXED?
AGHAST?
STARTLED,
PUZZLED?
STUMPED?
DISMAYED?
SHOCKED?
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY;
FLABBERGASTED!

Very long story, very short version:

At doctor's today, had my height recorded.

5 feet 2 & 1/2 inches



SAY WHAT BIOTCH?

NOW I KNOW YOU DIDN'T JUST TELL MY ASS THAT I'M
5 FEET 2 & 1/2 INCHES
WHEN CLEARLY IT SAYS RIGHT HERE ON MY LICENCE
(showing her licence)
THAT I'M
5 FEET 4 INCHES!
SEE?!#$%
YOU MUST BE MISTAKEN,
OBVIOUSLY YOU NEED TO DO THAT OVER!

(do over)



5 feet 2 & 1/2 inches.




HOLY
SHIT
NO F'N WAY!

(woman with the ruler)

"Yes f'n way..."

Excuse me while I take my newly short ass to a pity party for 1.
at the local chapter of the lolly pop guild.

*SNIFFLE*

=*(

Ruby's Very First...

...SNOW QUEEN!

Granted, she's not that fancy if you're talkin' REAL QUEEN.
BUT, since we're talkin' SNOW QUEEN,
THIS GIRL ROCKS!

We had such a good time making her!
Ruby named her Frosty,
appropriately enough,
and was THRILLED to use
hazelnuts for her eyes,
a little nubbin of a carrot for a nose,
and since we couldn't find sticks,
two of Nannie's kitchen utensils stood in for arms!
(& FYI: that's Ruby's special 'MARY HAT' on her head!)
When our work was down, Ruby stood back, surveyed the results, and said:
"Momma, wanna go inna house, is cowld out here!"

Now, it's raining & all that glorious snow is slowly melting away sadly.
All that means for me is that the morning commute more than likely
brings with it solid sheets of ICE EVERYWHERE,
as far as the paranoid driver can see.

GOOD TIMES!
(not)

This Is Either Really Adorable...

...or really GROSS!
How many times does my kid wipe her nose
WITHOUT A TISSUE
for crying out loud!

I made this little video to show all of you
just how WELL Ruby plays independently with her toys.
Especially her 'Little People',
of which we clearly have about a zillion.

And again as with all videos,
once you click play,
hit pause & wait for the whole thing to load before checking it out.

I really need to buy more tissues!
*shaking head*

Oh, and just in case you're wondering,
my reason for (not so) secretly video taping her,
(you'll see why I said 'not so' towards the end of the clip)
was because whenever I tell someone that Ruby really enjoy's playing by herself,
I usually get these half cocked looks as if to imply
'yeah right, suuuuuuure she does...'
so this is to share with you all that, yes-
Ruby truly does enjoy playing independently
with only Bear & her imagination to keep her company.
Oh, don't misunderstand,
we play together too and it's filled with smiles, silliness & laughter,
but more often than not, my girl wants to play 'all by self Momma'...
...and it never ceases to blow my mind just how happy she is.
Keep playin' baby, you make those LITTLE PEOPLE look good!
*proud Momma smile from ear to ear*

Psst, Hey Bella...

...you think Santa's gonna know we're sittin' in his chair?
I don't know where the heck he is, we've been at this party for hours now!

And I don't know about you but I hope it's soon,
cuz Nannie's starting to drive me nuts with that camera!

You know, screaming like that won't help matters,
Santa doesn't come if you're naughty, remember??
Try & tone it down, I got a chicken set ridin' on this...

Blackberry Streusel...

Ok, felt like making something yummy to go with my tea,
and boy was this it!

Ingredients:
1 cup butter (2 sticks) softened
1 cup sugar
2 cups all-purpose flour
1 egg
2 pkg Quaker instant oatmeal regular flavor (not pictured)
1 jar (10 oz) blackberry preserves

You will need an 8X8 Pyrex baking dish.
(preheat oven to 350)

Combine butter and sugar & beat at low speed, scraping the bowl often, until well blended.

Add flour, oatmeal & egg. Beat until mixture is crumbly, 2 - 3 minutes.

Reserve 1 cup crumb mixture for topping
& take remaining mixture & press into greased baking dish as evenly as possible.
Spread preserves to within 1/2 inch of edge of crust.

Crumble reserved mixture over preserves.

Bake for 45 minutes (until lightly browned)

Remove from oven & COOL COMPLETELY FIRST before cutting into bars.
(makes about 24 bars)

Enjoy!

A Conversation With Santa... *updated*

*click on links to find out what she really was asking for...


Santa: "Well Hello there little girl, what's your name?"
Ruby: "Santa, I need presents."
Santa: "Is that so? And what presents would you like this year?"
Ruby: "Ruby want a chicken set, an'a doll house, a GREEN ONE an' hangers." (look what's hanging inside the doll closet)
Santa: "Well Ruby, those sound like wonderful presents. Maybe Santa can bring some to your house this year..."
Ruby: "An'a put em unner a tree, ok?"
Santa: "Ok, you got it Ruby. Will you come back and see Santa again next year?"
Ruby: "Yes, an Momma gonna haffa drive, ok?"
Santa: *smiling* That sounds ok to me. You have a Merry Christmas Ruby!"
Ruby: "Bye Santa, Ruby wuv you!" *hugs the big guy*

Can I just say, quite a FAR CRY from last year!
HAHAHAHA

Wow...

...X's 3!

1st Christmas 2nd Christmas 3rd Christmas

Is it really our 3rd Christmas together?
Was this really the 3rd time I've been able to take my baby to see Santa?
Well, she's not a baby anymore.
She's growing into a sweet, wonderful, funny, loving, beautiful little lady.
And me?
Oh, I might be finding white hairs along the way,
& feeling aches & pains in places that I didn't know I could,
I have a bedtime that is painfully closer to hers with each passing night,
and yet,
I just know that I would not trade places with anyone else in the whole world,
ever.
They don't get to hear that beautiful child call them, "Momma".
Life is good.

Faster Than A Falling Ornament...

...taller than a Christmas tree?
Huh?@%#$%
Ok, so I'm NOT seeing things;

Here's our

First Year

& here's our

Second Year

& yes, this was seriously just taken

Tonight:

My kid's as tall as our tree.
(when the hell did THAT happen?!)
*sigh*

We did have a blast decorating the tree though.
Even made a few new ornaments prior to decorating.
(I sculpt with Scupley polymer clay)
And here are the newest additions to our box-O-ornaments:

Ruby requested this little guy,
"Momma wanna make a ice skating bear wif'a green sweata an'a hat too!"
Ask baby & ye shall receive!


This one I felt like making,
clearly you all know who it is so no need for introductions.
hehehe ;)
(and yes my stove IS that FILTHY in the backround.)
LOL My Mother's gonna have heart failure when she sees I posted this. LOL


Here's Santa Bear...
he's from a few years back.

I so miss my boy,
more than I have words to express it.
When I found this ornament in the box, I just paused a moment & my eyes filled with tears.
Ruby caught sight of this & walked up to me, took my hand & said:
"Momma no cry, Ebbyeezer happy he in heaven. Ruby here now."
Which, of course only made me cry even more...
She then decided that what I needed was a big hug & she kissed my cheek & said:
"I wuv you SO MUCH Momma, no cry."


I really am beyond blessed.

So, although my heart will always have a hole in it where Ebenezer once lived,
my heart will also always be blessed to be overflowing from the love of this gorgeous child.
And you just can't ask for anything more at Christmas, I'm pretty sure of that.

& to Ebenezer,
you're forever in my heart pal,
till we meet again old friend.
*big fuzzy Momma hug all the way up to dog heaven*

Merry Christmas.

Just Smitten With DEXTER...

...if you don't know what I'm talking about,
clearly you don't have Showtime.

If you don't have Showtime,
first I'll have to ask,
WHY NOT?!
And second, I MUST suggest:
THIS!
Honestly, this show had me hook, line & serial killer!

Now,
for those of you who read,
you all know that a book,
any book,
is always FAR BETTER than it's TV counterpart.
Period.
BUT, in this case?
It's
JUST
NOT
SO!
Showtime's Dexter series is,
excuse the pun,
KILLER!
Even though I truly have lost myself in watching every Sunday night,
I also wanted to read the books at some point,
and am currently reading:


It's book #2 in a trilogy.
Of course, you KNOW I didn't start reading that one,
without first reading THIS ONE cover to cover!
(Thanks to my best friend Jen who surprised me with book #1.
She knows me so well & loves me even more.)

And now?
Damn her,
I'M HOOKED ON THE BOOKS AS WELL AS THE FRIGGEN SHOW!

Once I'm done reading that one,
I'll need to pick up THIS ONE!
(the final installment in the series.)

Every night once Ruby's in bed,
Momma's got a date with Dear Ole' Dexter!
*grin*
There's just nothing like losing yourself in a book.
I tend to lose myself so completely,
that the real world disappears
& the story becomes my new reality.
So trippy!

What about you all?
Anyone currently as in love with a book as I am with Dexter?
DO TELL!

It's The Little Things...

...like dancing in the kitchen with Ruby & Bear.
The three of us all holding hands,
laughing as we go faster & faster in circles trying not to fall.

When, after she's helped me prepare dinner,
regardless of what it is, she'll ALWAYS grab my hand & say,
"Thank you helping Momma!"

When reading books together,
she'll giggle & finish every sentence before I do,
not only because she knows them all by heart,
but also because she knows how much it cracks me up!

Every morning, without fail, I wake up to this:

(bed head & a big smile) "Good morning Momma, I wuv you sooooo much!"

It's funny... I was just chatting with my good friend Kristen,
trying to help her decide who to take with her to tonight's Celtics game,
(Sorry Cath, you're not home otherwise you'd have gotten first dibs)
and it got me remembering a time in my life when I could just pick up
& go where ever, when ever,
without so much as a second thought.
And to be honest,
although I had fun reminiscing,
it just made me realize that I don't miss those days.

Because,
I'm fairly certain that all those
"mornings after"
were never filled with
'wuvs you soooo much'.
And that,
I wouldn't trade
for all the tickets
to all the Boston sporting events
for the rest of eternity.

I am blessed to be a proud Lifetime Ticket owner,
to what I know in my heart,
is quite possibly the best show in town...

Miss. Ruby Cate Pei Mu

(And every encore is better than the last!)

I'm Really Pleased...

...with Snapfish this year.
Last year, they dropped the ball,
and I was less than thrilled with my Christmas cards.
But, this year?
AMEN!

Those of you who normally get one from me will soon see what I'm talking about.
And for those of you who don't get a card from us,
I promise right after the holidays,
I'll share how they came out with everyone.
Just don't want to ruin the surprise.

Hee hee, this year, Snapfish gets TWO THUMBS UP from this single Momma!
(redemption is key, Snapfish... kudos!)

It's December 1st...

...party like ELVES!

hehehehe
I wonder if Nannie & Nonno will actually get a kick out of this
or just be annoyed they got elfed?
LOL

Some Things...

...you just CAN'T put a price on.



I suppose I could have just as easily listed this doll on eBay,
but,
it wasn't mine to list now, was it?


This gift was left for Ruby, not me,
while we stayed at the White Swan in Guangzhou, China.



Why on earth would anyone see fit to take something clearly left for their child
& try to make a profit from it's sale on eBay is beyond me.



Call me silly but I'm a firm believer that toys should be PLAYED WITH,
not stashed away on a shelf for the purpose of dust collecting.
I even let Ruby play with any/all of the Cabbage Patch Kids from my doll case.
The reason I love them so much is because as a child,
I PLAYED with them,
and so shall Ruby too.
Hell, we both sit on the floor & dress & undress them over and over,
taking turns as to who gets what outfit this time.
It's a BLAST!
(yes, I really am 35, honest!)


No reason in the world is going to stand up against the one that supports the right,
for my little girl to expand her creative mind through imaginative play
& allow her to just be a kid.
Toys & children are MEANT to be together,
are they not?

So today,
after over two years since first receiving this doll,
it's finally in her sweet little hands.
(I waited till I was sure the small pieces- aka: shoes, would be a non issue)

And I have to say,
watching her play with it just now,
is something that I could NEVER put a BIN price on...

...period.

"Want A Sandwich..."

...while sitting here at the computer (7:48am Thurs morning)
and as miss Ruby is curled up in her overstuffed pink chair watching Curious George,
I asked her the following:

"Ruby, would you like some breakfast?"

Her reply?

(see title to this post)

HA!

I asked:
"What kind of sandwich?"

her reply?

"Want peanut butter sandwich..."

Me: "A Sandwich? You sure?"

Ruby: "Yes."

Me: "Why a sandwich?"

Ruby: "Want a sandwich just like George."

I turn around & our friend Curious George is having & enjoying a FISH sandwich,
thus, Ruby's reasoning for the peanut butter sandwich. LOL

Me: "Ruby, George is having a fish sandwich, do you want a FISH sandwich too?"

Ruby: "NO! Want a peanut butter and a jam sandwich."

There you have it. So much for toast and tea for my girl,
today? We're apparently having SANDWICHES with our tea. LOL

hehehehehe

I just LOVE her SO MUCH!

Happy Breakfast everyone, no matter WHAT you enjoy!

Silly...

...with

a fun

HAT!